Obligatory relationship feels-post.
It annoys me a bit that though there obviously is something going on between me and the Bear, we haven't really talked about it. In a way, it's lovely to get your point across without talking. He does understand me in a funny way, like we had our own way of communicating. But on the other hand, I would like this ocean to be clear and deep. I want to know where we're headed, I'd love to hear more of his thoughts on things. Boy, would I be glad if he had a blog like this where he posted random vents.
I just have this insatiable craving to spend more time with him, to know him better.
I miss my Bear and I really, really, really want to just spend more time with him. I just realized that we haven't had any chilling time alone yet, just the two of us. Like watching stupid old movies or drinking tea and shit like that. I know I sound immensely creepy (in a pretty sidhe-like way) when I say this, but I really crave to see him in his "natural habitat". In the middle of a burst of emotion and inspiration, or just laying on the sofa scratching his balls. I want to see every side of him. I want to live only on his scent, gaze and touch. It's like I'm ridiculously addicted to his very presence.
I. Want. To. Get. Closer.
Can you believe this, it's almost like I - ME of all people - want a proper fucking DATE.
Oh man, I'm in it deep, aren't I?
I've been addicted to loads of things. Smoking. Alcohol. Cutting and starving myself. But this - him - must be the strongest of them all. An addiction I don't want to get rid of.
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