I've been having pretty nasty mood swings lately, and haven't actually been very motivated or concentrated enough to write anything in length. At least not in english, that is. That, and I've felt I have pretty much nothing to write about. Feels kind of stupid to just type some random blablabla.
...Though maybe I should. This is my damn blog and I CAN type random blablaba if I wish to.
Well, despite the mood swings, I've still been doing pretty good. Playing WoW for a bit, reading and drinking unholy amounts of coffee. The basic stuff, really. :) Bear is possibly coming here tomorrow. I really miss him already. Five days apart feels like a year.
I somehow manage to feel GUILTY for being so head over heels for him. Like I'm ignoring my friends and everything else in my life. But fuck it, that's how I work. I've been doing it before and if people have problems with it, I trust them to say it out loud.
To be honest, I'm not feeling too social right now. I just want to go all "fuck everything", retreat into a tiny cabin in the middle of nowhere with Bear and howl to the Moon.
Yes, I love my friends and family. But it's not my damn duty to kiss their ass every damn minute. No, I haven't been kissing their asses every damn minute - nor will I, because I'm not programmed like that.
Yes, I'm a bit cranky and in a rebellious mood.
Maybe I should write a few drabbles on Bramh, this would be the perfect mood...
I feel guilty and stupid and so damn angry for basically no reason. Frustrating.
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